I met a guy a year and a half ago now, he was so charming and lovely towards me.

The first warning signs i noticed was when he wouldn't allow me to talk to other males and got super jealous over them and would often check mymessages on my phone. He made me block my ex on facebook. One night my ex messaged him saying he was visiting our hometown and wanted to meet us both for a drink, my then partner got super angry and left in a massive rage. I ended up going to the pub anyway and text him inviting him to come down. He got sooo mad. Anyway when i went home that night he was really drunk and pulled out a knife threatening to stab me in the face, he spat on me, headbutted me, pushed me over, snapped my phone in half and broke half of my stuff i owned. I ran away and hid in bushes for the night. We argued for days about it and hekept spitting on me so i left him and moved away. We ended up getting back together a month or so later, wekept  breaking up and getting back together. Caught him out chatting up girls so many times and he'd deny it or act like it was nothing. I neveroncewas abusive towards him. Anyway a couple weeks ago we attenpted to get back together again. He got so mad about someone id slept with while we were broken up, he literally told me id fucked his whole life up and that i should just kill myself, or even better he should just kill me. He spat on me, strangled me, punched my legs, threatened to burn me, smashed some of my items up etc. Anyway, i now have a protection order against him because im super worried about my safety. 

Has any other ladies been in the same situation? How the hell do you recover again? Im constantly in fear of going out of the house, im scared to talk to people, im like constantly perteified of living life. I actually feel so messed up in the head now. There was so much more abuse to the relationship, i just tried to cut it short :/ any tips on recovery would be ideal, x