Ok so let me start off by saying I know I screwed up but at the time I felt I was doing the right thing given my situation.. I've already taken steps to move forward and do better... So here's my situation at hand .. I'm working and currently looking into finding another place to live and possibly a roommate ... Ok so I live with my husband our 15 month old and my 3 year old in his family's garage. I have a 7 year old who I'm gettin in two weeks from my dad .. And my 9 year old loves with my step mom who is her guardian... The issue at hand is that my step mom doesn't understand that my oldest can't live with me.. She asked me if my 7 year old is going to stay with me I said yes she then said well you can take your daughter and I'm like no it's not that easy... Due to the circumstances revolving the guardianship cps has been involved for the sole purpose of making sure the guardian does what is needed .. Anyways they called me last week stating if I petition the court for custody they will stand behind me all the way and 95% of the time if they recommend something to the court they usually follow through..they want me to petition for the sake of mine and my daughters bond.. They are afraid that the court will close the cps case and I'll never see my child because everything will be up to the guardian regardless of a court order.. My husband and I had to ask his family if my 7 year old could stay and offered more money for rent.. He took 3 months to ask and she took 3 wks to tell me yes.. Well the day she said yes for my 7 year old the cps worker had called for me to petition for custody.. When I called my husband to tell him he told me that his family won't allow any more of my kids to stay and that I should wait until I get a place to live cuz if I go and petition and bring her here I'd have to move out... So today my step mom asked when I was going to get my 7 year old I told her then she mentioned me taking my oldest back and I said that she can't stay here.. She said y and I said idk.. I explained to my husband that it's not fair and he said well it's not my fault or my family's that you gave up your kids and well I cried cuz he knew why I did what I did .. And then I told him well I'm sure if your ex gf called asking you to take in your two boys I'm sure your family would find room he said well ya they are my kids.. And I said well how would u feel if the tables were turned and my family basically told u only the youngest can stay?? He has yet to answer me.. I'm laying here mad at myself for believing people I'm mad at myself for moving here in the first place.. I know I fucked up and well I'm trying to do the right thing and I know my oldest is going to feel unwanted when she finds out that all her siblings can be with me but she can't.. Only way I can petition the court now is by moving out with or without my husband just need a home.. Shelters are full and low income housing lists are all waitlisted by years... I have very little help I do have a place I can go to but I won't be able to petition the court if I go because it's out of state.. And sadly the courts refuse to transfer the case otherwise I wouldn't be writing... Please don't judge me I know I've fucked up and I'm doing whatever I can to try to fix it.. Cps is not involved with me persay as I have no open case .. They are solely involved more on my oldest daughter and the guardian..