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I really wish people would stop saying " how do you know you're gay if you have not been with a guy" it can really be damaging to a person, that's how I was was sexually assaulted because I felt like a fraud for never being with a guy so I invited a guy over and when he got there I got cold feet and said I didn't want to do it anymore he told me it would he okay that I would end up liking it so there I laid on a dusty wooden floor pretending to like it, after it was all said and done I felt disgusted with myself I didn't get out of bed for hours on end for days I just laid there crying I could still feel his hands on me I could feel the dirt on my skin and in my hair, I had a friend tell me I deserved it for inviting this guy over and getting him excited for it so I never told another soul again...