Will I be able to?

Jen
Hi guys, idk if I'm being sensitive or what but I don't believe there's such thing as "marriage". I used to think there is such thing as "marriage" but now it's just a scary word to hear or say.  Our society now is ruining the definition of "love, relationship, and marriage". He was my first relationship of 5 years.   
I don't know if I'm able to love again.